setting: The dining room (where I sleep whilst at my parents) wearing: PJ's hair: a birds nest mess make up: none... it's ten past four in the morning drinking: tea eating: nothing listening: torn by Natalie Umbruglia... suits my train of thought watching: BBC news 24 stalking: Terence - because I adore him :-P


I miss my Colombian boy... he's gone today but it's too late. There's nothing I can do but sit here and cry at 4:15 in the morning about how I never told him just how I truly felt, now he's going around the world to dance and fuck a million girls, He'll probably get a million different STD's and pass them onto me when he get's back. We'll end up dying slow diseased filled deaths together in our mid 20's cast out of society, treated as lepers.

I don't know what to do, I feel so miserable. How do I forget him so this isn't my fate? how? how? how? But I don't want to let go, it hurts too much.


lesson of the day - Don't fall for the bastards no matter how gorgeous and good in bed, they'll mess you up
obsession of the day - The long lost Colombian boy

setting: the dining room wearing: navy blue skimpy dance top, black trackie bottoms (both Helen's... sorry Helz, I've kidnapped your wardrobe!) hair: ummm... ballet bun, very balletic looking make up: none, can't be bothered drinking: lilt - da totally tropical taste man! eating: terayaki with shrimp... it's pretty minging but then I cooked it myself listening: Miss Saigon... I feel like being all dramatic and Sentimental watching: I have NO idea but it's got one of the kids from the Junior school, Zara, in it. That's a weird thing about going to a stage school you always run the risk of viewing someone you know on TV stalking: a decent pair of earrings, I NEED a decent pair of earrings! what I SHOULD be doing rather than writing yet another procrastinating excuse of a journal entry?: - working out my director's, writing my director's file, generally DOING my sodding director's oh and studying for my cocktail test on Thursday.... I love my life at the moment!

The weather's beautiful... I need to get my ass outside!

Miyu x x x

lesson of the day - fairy liquid does NOT dissolve grease nearly as quickly as it claims
obsession of the day - washing my hands over and over... I think it's turning into an OCD
quote of the day - "it's me! having gratuitous lexbian sex!!?!?!" - my thoughts on "Miyuki chan in wonderland"

setting: the dining room wearing: gray pj top, pink downy hot pants hair: since I last saw you considerabley blonder ^____^ make up: none, it's beedtime drinking: lemon juice and water eating: nothing listening: the phantom of the opera watching: posse stalking: Sam, she's (to steal her word) "sexcellent" :p

I'm back in the internet world for a month or so, sorry for my unexpected and abbrupt absense but circumstances have been such that i've hardly had time to think let alone blog! but it's good to be back ^____^

some considerable changes have happened in my life over the past 2 months, i can't elaborate on them in too much detail tonight as my head is fuzzy but here they are in my over used list format...

1) My father is slowly recovering from his stroke, he still weak on his left hand side and now has a permament limp but it is a vast improvement to how he was earlier on this year, also due to the weight he's dropped on health grounds he looks 15 years younger.... i have a strangely attractive daddy ^___^
2) I have a new job, a cocktail girl. It's fun work, good pay but crippling hours, balancing it with college is proving difficult
3) The Colombian boy will be completely out of my life for 6 months as of April the 9th... should I be thrilled or should I cry?
4) I've turned 19 (thank you to all who said happy birthday ^____^)
4) and the most superficial change of all... I'm now as blonde as blonde gets! a barbie doll at her finest -_^


more later possibly, let's see if insomnia calls again tonight...

Miyu *^*x*^*

lesson of the day - affection is a fickle thing
obsession of the day - Fcuk perfume... eu de yumnmy!
quote of the day - "i never lie - i willfully engage in a campaign of misinformation" - my signature from ASMR and so very very true it is!

Thank you all for your sweet and supportive comments and emails left over the last entry, they touched me deeply...

an actual journal entry is coming tomorrow... i hope to see you then.

much love, Miyuki xxxxxx

My Dad suffered two strokes within the space of a few hours this week...

I came home from college on Thurdays (the incidents happened on uesday and Wednesday but my Mother didn't want to worry me and my brothers and sisters until they knew the extent of the damage which was late Wednesday night)

I honestly feel as if someone has put somekind of ill health curse on my family during the past 12 months, first there was me and my problems which really came to head practically a year ago to this day, my Brother and his wife had an horiffic car crash during the summer which they miraculously escaped from with only broken bones, my Mother had a hysteroectomy barely 5 months ago and now my poor Father's in hospital and has very little sensation throughout the leftside of his body.

Thank god he's predicted to make a 99 - 100 percent recovery, He's only in his 40's he shouldn't be having to suffer this. His blood pressure is so high all the nurses think the machines broken every time they try to take it. He needs to understand he's not 21 anymore, he can't go out boozing all night and then get up at 6 the next day to do a 10 mile bike ride before work, it's a completely contradictory lifestyle that must be behind the strokes.

I'm not too sure how much more medical drama I can take. I'd much rather I was ill instead of anyone I love being sick or injured, I can cope with the loss of myself. I can't cope with the thought of losing them, a thought that keeps disturbingly re-accuring due to so much unforseen accident's and illness throughout the past year.

All I want in life is good health for my friends and family... is that really too much to ask for world?

setting: the dining room wearing: that lovely fluffy Muji top again hair: down make up: body shop 3 in 1 foundation, peach blusher, watermelon lipgloss drinking: lucozade eating: the reniment's of my brother's birthday chinese meal listening: Bombay dream's (see below) watching: God only know's what the hell it is... stalking: **nita! don't go! *cries* pimping: ASMR it's had it's domain name pinched a while back, it's now .net instead of .com >.<

In 5 hours I'll be driving back up to London for college on Monday, my holiday is drawing to it's end and as I'm sure you've all seen the pattern before you'll know that I'm lucky if I get to write in my journal more than once a week and my email correspondence becomes even more scarce.
I'm looking forward to go going back but dreading it at the same time as I always do whenever I've had a long period away. Once again the hardened competitive starts, the bitchiness, the pettiness, the fakeness, the pointlessness but so to does the fun, the friends, the love and the parties. I can't have without the other so I put up with all aspects of college.... besides, there's only 7 monts left ^___^

One of my few Asian real life friends is emmigrating to Bombay today with her family, lucky thing, she's completely gorgeous. 21 year's of age, 5 foot eight, green blue eyes, coffee complexion, she looks like one of the competitor's of Miss India, her demeanor even suggest's as much. She's even had modelling contract's out in India before and that's the work she has lined up once again. Her family is positively rich out there, the pound stretches very far... they're going to love her English accent. ^__^
The only thing she's slightly concerned about is she only know's English and Punjabi, the majoritive language of Bombay is Hindi I believe.... nevermind sweetie, I KNOW you are going to have the time of your life out there ^___^

In honour of British-Asian traveller's everywhere here is a selection of songs from "Bombay Dreams"... I'll be taking these and all previous songs down in my next post so download them while you can.

bombay awakes
bombay dreams
love's never easy
happy ending's
shakalaka baby
how many star's?
chaiyya chaiyya
closer than ever

Miyu *^*x*^*

lesson of the day - Heart attacks and indegestion are hard to distinguish (I had one today... indegestion I mean ^^;)
obsession of the day - trying not to worry about the stabbing pains in my heart O.o;
quote of the day - It is not a picnic being famous! - Priya, "Bombay Dreams"

setting: the dining room wearing: small grey Muji shirt, coffee trackie bottoms hair: pushed back in head band make up: none - just took it off drinking: water eating: I don't know yet... I want my tea, I'm starving >.< listening: Put him out - Ms Dynamite watching: Neighbours (every body needs good NEEEEIIIGHBOURS! Aussie's, Kiwi's and Brit's know what I meam -_^) stalking: - no strength to stalk... I'm dying from a lack of food O.o pimping: - Li Chan! my babies back from a redesigning haitus ^___^

It's my youngest Brother's 22nd tomorrow... we're all getting so old, I be 19 soon O.o I've bought him an Ali G card which when opened yells "you is minging!", I thought that was a nice touch ^__^

I don't really have very much to report today I'm afriad, my holiday is drawing to a close, it's my last day at the Jewelers tomorrow, I have so much to prepare for going back up to London and such little time to do it, but on a plus my my Dad's giving me his "old" PC to take back with me! (It's a year "old" ha!) I'm so pleased ^___^


Miyu x

lesson of the day - sleeping in till 3pm cannot be healthy
obsession of the day - waiting for my tea...
quote of the day - "If I wait long enough, it'll be my Birthday and I won't have to do it!" - Drew on taking the rubbish out.

setting: my bed wearing: huge grey Muji fleece top down to my knees hair: scrapped back into pony tail make up: none drinking: water eating: Salmon sandwiches listening: Heaven - DJ Sammy watching: E.T... urgh.. you have to be made of stone not to cry at this damn film :-( stalking: a remedy to this bloody flu thing pimping: everyone's favourite internet couple...Raven and Mona

Euro Dance today... the fantastic DJ Sammy with Heaven commercial dance at it's best ^___^

2003...

It looks so strange having that written up there... how futuristic does that sound? Ever since 2000 the act of writing the date down makes me think we should be living in a supercharged, high tech space age, It doesn't feel that way to me kiddies. Where's my hover car? Where's my miraculous pill that's going to keep me looking 18 till I'm an old granny? And most importantly of all where's my 2001 space oddessy? That's year's over due now! I remember intentionally looking up at the stars 2 years ago to the night looking for a giant floating baby hovering above the Earth..... yes, I was drunk and yes, I am a geek -_^

I've lost a ridiculous amount of weight due to being bed ridden for the past 5 day days. I think it's all water related but it's very noticeable, especially from my boobies! I miss my boobies, they'd grown a lot during recent months which I put down to the "Caucasian boobie gene" finally overriding the "Asian boobie gene" (I'm sure there's a more scientific way of putting that but then I never did pay much attention during science), not to mention all that chocolate I'd been eating, but now all that hard growing work and calories from the chocolate has been put to waste. They are gone, they are no more! I doubt I could fill an A cup! O.o;

*sigh*

Oh well, on a related note my arse has also shrunk which can't be a bad thing.

Why all this body obsessing in my journal which is something I rarely do? I think I'm getting annoyed at my self for all the political nonsense I've been going on about recently...

f**K politics (there goes number 7 of my new years resolutions) I've got more important things to worry about... like the state of my cellulite!


Miyu, shallow in 2003 and loving it xxx


lesson of the day - Quality streets contain 50 calories each - bloody hell!!!
obsession of the day - Love Hina - cute!
quote of the day - "Mic Whores!" - voice chat last night! I love that phrase....Miiiiic whoooore

setting: My bed wearing: Pink tracksuit, white spooned top (I actually got dressed today... it's a bleedin' miracle!( hair: bunches make up: none drinking: water eating: ham soup listening: Dirrty watching: CBBC viewers choice awards stalking:my uber beloved BF Chris!... see? I promised I would! ^__^ pimping: three new "girls" out on the streets today... Neko chan/ Cathy Whose helped me with Kanji translation in the past (point to the kanji illiterate Brit girl people O.o) plus she's a very sweet person, Anna Whose site I think I'm in love with and last but by no means least Arches whose design skills I really admire, the day I learn to design like that is the day hell freezes over

Sayonara 2002

Edit Urgh... Ms Dynamite was the plan for today but you'll have make do with Dirrty by Ms Christina Ag instead. Ms D tomorrow I promise ^__^

I'm still on an "promote the Brit Pop" kick so today for your downloadable pleasure is Ms Dynamite "Ms Dy Nee Mite He", a British R&B artist, whose taken this country by storm this past year. I think she's fanbloodytastic and I'm looking forward to her future domination of the world!

Talking about future domination of the world I think I've finally figured out a way to save us from a fate total oblivion at the hands of our world leaders...
A game of the weakest link. I'm not kidding, they've done every other conceivable form of weakest link specials from "celebrity weakest link" down to "nymphomaniacs weakest link" why not the most interesting weakest link of all... "Dictator's weakest link". Where the UN has failed Ann Robinson shall succeed, she should at least be able to whip that pathetic lot into shape with one flick of her acid tongue. They'd probably make her crown Princess of the World which is very bad news for Welsh people.

I think being sick has made me overly concerned with political matters... usually I don't give a damn, well at 18 I'm not really supposed to care am I? aren't I supposed to be an international member of the western world's apathetic youth? Next thing I know I'll charging around the neighbourhood handing out party political broadcast flyers like I used to as a child.
My Dad is a very staunch member of the conservative party *sigh* awful to admit to having one in the family I know. The day he was registered as a UK citizen he started dragging me and my Sisters round the streets of our village posting Conservative propaganda through everyone's letter boxes as it was near polling day... Oh dear, oh dear me. That was not the way for "the crazy foreign Japanese man" to make friends in the neighbourhood Dad.
Me, Mika and Isla were very young and cute at that point, 7 to 9 years old, didn't have a clue what those little blue flyers, didn't care really. All we knew was that there was a bag of sweets and two quid each for us at the end of the ordeal. So imagine our surprise when after just posting a flyer through a letter box like any other when an irate woman suddenly burst through the front door and confronted us with a bucket of ice cold water in our hands. I recognised her instantly as one of mine and Mika's classmates Daniel's, Mother, who I knew happened to be head of the Labour party in our particular village... uhoh, trouble.
She marched past us straight up to our Dad and promptly dumped the bucket of water over his head. We screamed, two thirds in horror and a third in laughter (that third being Mika of course) Dad remained the picture of composure though and simply nodded slightly to his assailant, she looked him square in the eye and practically spitted "How dare you get these innocent Children to do the devils work!" she turned and swiftly marched back indoors leaving us to drag the sopping wet Father back home. The incident is still thought of with hilarity in my household, I think it's a Japanese/ Scottish crazy thing... I'm still bloody livid at the Labour Women and have made a mental note to always make sure her house was on the recommended list for egging during Halloween amongst the neighbourhood children, ten years later I think it still is! ha ha!

What did I learn from this fiasco turned farce? Politics is a dangerous game, buckets of water and rotten eggs are must....

Now turning thoughts to the future and learning from the past as is so customary at New Year's...
2002 was an undoubtably difficult year for me, I succumbed to Depression and was put on a course of anti depressents for the first 6 months of 2002, I was traumatised by my brother his fiancee getting into a car crash on some dicey roads in Hokkaido, I watched my Mother get wheeled away for her hystorectomy, I lost a beloved family pet, I lost the trust of a very dear friend and I'm still in the grips of a sadly unrequited love. But I've learnt a lot from all of this, I chased depression away with a big fat stick I call determination, I realised my family and friends are the most prescious thing to me in the world and I never should take them for granted... but love, I still don't think I've got that one worked out just yet, nevermind, I'm still young... I doubt I'm going to die an old maid! ^__^

Here's a list of new year's resolutions I'm sure I'll break three seconds after midnight...

1) Eat more
2) Eat more HEALTHILY
3) To be kinder to my parents
4) To visit Korea
5) To find someone kind
6) Drink less
7) Stop swearing so bloody much
8) Phone my grandparents more
9) Making my entries less sporadic
10) To fall truly, madly, deeply in love

Good luck to you and good luck to me, here's wishing you a joyful 2003

Miyuki x


lesson of the day - dehydration is not my friend
obsession of the day - Back to the future films
quote of the day - " If the gods had wanted me to fly I would have been born with wings!" - my Japanese grandmother in faltering English on the phone at 3 AM this morning... I love her so much ^___^

setting: My bed wearing: Garfield PJ's hair: messy (I'm still ill >.<) make up: none, just a very greasy face drinking: water eating: nothing listening: Girlfriend - Nsync feat. Nelly watching: Friends stalking: I'm too mortified to stalk pimping: same for pimping


EDIT: I'm much happier now.. thank you Cucan for apologizing ^_^ sorry If I sounded a bit cold in certain places in this post, I don't mean to take it out on you... I'm referring to lot's of things bugging me about the internet at the moment!

This layout and the image was downloaded from blogskins a site I have relied on for all my layout's so far. I am not a good web designer, everyone know's this fact as I constantly moan about it. I have always relied on the kindness of other's who donate blog layouts to sites such as blogskins. I'd have a very bad looking journal otherwise, but thanks to all the donators' like Deddy I can have a lovely, easy to navigate layout. If you were to read back through my posts I ALWAYS give credit where credit is due, I have never once claimed it was mine.
I used this layout back in May for a now defunct journal of mine (back when missdream was a joint blog between me and my sisters) I emailed Deddy thanking him for this layout. I think it's beautiful and I could never hope in a million years to ever design something so lovely so I'm grateful that he put it up on blogskins for people like me to download. I think I'll be afraid to use blogskins in the future though if this is the kind of reaction I'm going to get.

If I need to change anything or do anything else I hope Deddy will get in contact with me so we can sort this out.

This is one thing that's really getting me angry about the internet in general as of late (and don't get me wrong, I'm not just referring to this incident), you should defend your friends by all means but we're all far too quick to jump down each other's throats before getting our facts straight... I know because I'm guilty of it to in the past, we all are. I personally believe any confrontation should be done through e-mail especially if a loss of face is involved, old fashioned of me maybe but what can I say? my Japanese gene's are betraying me, this is a serious embarrassment to me

Maybe I'm overreacting to this slightly but it's upsetting me in my delirious state, I've still got the bloody flu and this not helping


lesson of the day - Taking days off work is aggrevating to me
obsession of the day - trying to get better as quickly as possible
quote of the day - I need a hug - me

Repost: good thing I had this written down somewhere else, if blogger screws this up I'll scream....

setting: my bed wearing: grey flannel PJ's hair: loose make up: none drinking: water eating: nothing listening: Overload - the Sugarbabes watching: Eastenders stalking: A can of Coke, I'd kill for a can of coke right now... pimping Tun... he's such a good writer.

Still feeling dreadful today but I refuse to spent a journal entry moaning about it! Just be warned though, I won't make a lot of sense today. I'm drugged up on some wonderful stuff my GP gave me ^_^

New feature implemented today...

can't decide if I'll keep it up but we'll see. My sister has very kindly donated a large amount of space for me to store things so the listening section now has a downloadable song of whatever I'm listening to that specific day. The first is the Sugarbabe's Debuting song "Overload" which came out two year's ago. I don't know how big the Sugarbabes are outside of Europe but they're very popular here. The group used to consist of three girls all my age (so they were 16 when "overload" first came out) Then the red headed one (I'm awful with names O.o;) left and was replaced by an ex member of Atomic Kitten member, the group has gone from strength to strength since.

There music is not sugary sweet contrived trite like you would expect from a group so young, It has attitude and realism other girl bands can only dream about. All the music and lyrics are penned by themselves which makes a refreshing change in an industry so flooded with manufactured dross. If you like pop music with an edge then the sugarbabes are definitely for you.

changing the subject rather dramatically...

The South Korean's are getting a very raw deal in the British media at the moment, every time I turn on the news it's "Korea this" and "Korea that" rarely does anyone make the distinction between North Korea and South Korea which I can imagine is causing huge problems for the community of South Korean's in London. I've tried explaining the situation to anyone who'll listen (but let's face it, most people my age couldn't give a damn in this country ) and to think of North and South Korea as the old East and West Germany which is much closer to home. Only difference is that the Berlin wall becomes 100's of miles of deadly no man's land, quite possibly one of the most dangerous places on earth. (I don't really think that's the only difference by the way, I KNOW it's not, it's just the way I explain it to people who don't care about anything unless it's on this crappy group of Island's)

I'm shocked by people's complete turn around in their views on Korea, less than 6 months ago South Korea was one of the most highly esteemed countries in Asia in the British eyes because it did so well in the world cup (football being the "religion" of your average male Brit) Now all I hear from those very same guy's down the pub after a hard day is....

"those krazy Korean's! what they think they're playin at with all these nuclear weapons?!"
"North Korea!!" I yell at them "It's NORTH KOREA!!!! you fools!"
"Yeah but what about them protests in Seoul then against America? What's that all about?"
"Two young school girls were killed because of U.S. army negligence and get away Scott free, do you think it would have been the same out come if the situation had been reversed? If the South Korean Army ran over two American girls? I don't think so...

The South Korean's have every right to be mad at the U.S. government right now, I'd hate it if the U.S. army was over running my country, hell they probably will be over running my country if this war with Iraq kicks off. Once again Britain get's to be "the floating air craft carrier in the North Sea" just the right target for any missiles and attacks... just great.


lesson of the day - Lemsip doesn't work >.<
obsession of the day - trying to stay awake
quote of the day - "meow mrrrrr purr" - the famous Meow Purr transformation by Tyler the cat

setting: my bed wearing: work clothes still hair: messy make up: slept in (running down face... must take it off) drinking: water (trying to) eating: nothing listening: nothing watching: Casulty stalking: I wish I had the strength to stalk.....
pimping: Cyn because I'm a very loyal Hedgie ^_^


I have a bit of a vent to start this entry...

I'm currently doing what I always do with my half sister during every Christmas holiday season and working at a in a Jewelrist
I used to think my seasonal work as jewellrist would keep me safe from weirdo's, but I guess even freaks need Jewelry O.o

Nothing too strange has ever really happened during my three years working there, the biggest complaint I have would be the occasional rude customer (you've no idea of just how nasty humanity can be until you've tried your hand at retail) but I can handle them easily enough, I learnt the art of being subtley rude back without them having anything on me to get me into trouble long ago, but today I just could NOT deal with this one couple in paticular

I was on the Diamond window today (the Diamond window is my baby, I like to look after it ^_^) I keep it clean, polished and laid out nice, I'd made a few good sales easily enough, I'd already completed my daily target within an hour so I was happy until this rather ugly (yes I'm rude and shallow and sometimes judge on apperences.... deal with it) middle age couple waddled in.
I sized them up in a second and rolled my eyes, I deduced they'd have to be buying silver which I hate selling as it means I'd have to go right up the stairs to the storeroom and look for the item they required and knowing my luck it would probably only be worth £2.99.... I was wrong, the wanted a Wedding ring from the Diamond window. So I got my solid gold wedding band pad from the window and set it out infront of them. (incidently they weren't getting married, the women had lost her ring)

The woman tired to get her other rings off her finger, she was having difficulty because they were too tight so she spat on them. Fine, I thought, it's her jewelry just as long as she.....

Ohno!!!

She tried the wedding ring on whilst her finger was still covered in spit! I glared at her hoping she'd get the hint that what she'd just done was disgusting! that's our store's ring, not her's!

She decided she then didn't want that paticular ring so I had to touch it to put it back -_-

I was not a happy bunny.

She then chose another ring and did the same thing again, except this time she spat directly onto it even before trying it on!

I was enraged and yelled "excuse me!!!" at her but she inturruped me mid flow as she decided to take the now very slimy ring. Not wanting to spoil a sale I had to bite my tounge and keep quiet, no matter how angry I was. She had to get the damn thing off her finger again though and I AGAIN had to touch yet another slimy spit covered ring to run it through the till.

I am absolutely disgusted, what dreadful manners that woman had. You do not go spitting all over a jewellrist's stock!
I spent the next half hour manically cleaning my hands and all my wedding rings from top to bottom in gold cleaner even though she didn't touch that many, I just felt so polluted because of it.

I know it's an over reaction to such a simple body fluid as saliva but she was a total stranger, god know's where she's been! And you just don't spit all over thousands of pounds worth of gold! Was she insane?
Urgh... just thinking about it makes me want to take a hot shower with my poor wedding band


I seem to have caught this nasty bug that's been going around my work as well, my temprature's rocketed yet I keep shivering, My head's grown very fuzzy, I'm very weak and have problems getting up the stairs, I've just slept 8 hours solid during the day time which I never do and worst of all I can't keep any food down because I keep throwing up, even water I'm having problem's with, I'm so dehydrated.

Thank god I have tomorrow off but even so I don't think I'll be in Monday.

Miyu the sick *^*x*^*


lesson of the day - This experience should should spurn me on to actually getting a panto next year!
obsession of the day - saving my poor rings from a messy spittle end
quote of the day -

"oh she's being sick again" 5 minutes later.... "oh she's being sick AGAIN!"
"A little help here Mika!!!" - me and Mika, whose about as useful as a wet fish

setting: The back room wearing: last nights PJ's still I'm yet to wake up hair: a complete birds nest make up: none... my face is very greasy though... nice thought for you there drinking: tea and milk eating: nothing listening: nothing watching: honey I blew up the kid stalking: The January sales, which I'm planning to hit the moment I get dressed and out the door pimping: Raymond, I've been neglecting him recently too -_-

I have recently rediscovered the wonder that is Scott. The man is a legend, I had no idea just how long he's been writing for, I've spent the past previous three days trawling through his archives. He's made me laugh, he's made me cry and being a fellow hapa I could sympathize with him on so many different aspects, especially the joy of trying to make out just where a hapa fit's into modern society. So Thank you Scott ^___^

More later, after yesterday's seriousness I'll have to be "frothy" today so I'll tell you what my trip from the hunting grounds of the shopping centre find's...

UPDATE:

list of kill's I made...


random make up:

Caboodle brillant a levres lipgloss (melon magic)
retractable powder brush
Simple one step facial cleansing wipes
bourjois coup de theatre mascara

Body Shop:

Lip and eye palette, natural touch
Lip scuff
perles de soleil bronze (bronzer)
eye applicator/ blender
lip line fixer
liquid concealer
All in one face base
eye liner sharpener
blusher pink

CD's from Virgin Megastore

Starlight Express (Original london cast)
Joseph and the amazing technicoloured dream coat (1990 CR)
Bombay Dreams (Original london cast)

God I'm good ^__^

I miss Southampton, it was lovely to go there again. I couldn't believe how many Asian's were out and about shopping today. (actually scratch that, I can perfectly well believe how many Asian's were out shopping today... it's the January sales for godsake! bwaha... Ooooo sterotype ^_-) It was nice to blend in (sort of) for a change.
I also can't believe two boys I saw today. Two gorgeous hapa boys who had to be brother's out shopping, I can't believe I wasn't aware of two gorgeous Hapa boy's in Southampton... I think I fell in love on the spot, I was in complete Hapa heaven ^_^

It's entries like these that proove to me not matter how grown up and mature I like to think I am, I'm still a very hormonal teenager at heart

Miyu *^*x*^*


lesson of the day - dancing en pointe with uncut toenails will make you want to die
obsession of the day - Another dose of Lord of the Rings, should I go see it AGAIN? I'll have to proclaim myself queen geek if I do
quote of the day -

"Well I'm a Man, and she's a woman... what does that make you?"
"your worst Lesbian nightmare!!!!" - Andrew and Mika arguing very LOUDLY this morning

Let's try this again shall we?

setting: The back room wearing: pink trackkie bottoms Grey PJ top hair: bunches make up: none - out of the bath and feeling all clean ^_^ drinking: hot chocolate eating: prawn and red pepper risotto listening: crouching tiger, hidden dragon soundtrack watching: goodbye Mr Chips - so sad stalking: Emily me adorable little cousin pimping: Terence - I've been neglecting him as of late and I feel awful

I've reverted back to the layout I had on my very old Journal, the one pre "miss dream" I hope you like it, most of you won't remember it. So thank you once again to Deddy, domo! ^___^

My comment box seems to have died on it's feet though and I can't for the life of me figure out how I'm supposed to get it work again. Maybe it's time I finally gave in to the popularity that is the tag board but those things are scary, to me they are incredibly technical! Well, if anyone has any hint on how to set up either please contact me, I'd be very grateful.

Christmas was lovely but tinted with sadness for me, I can't help but think this could well be the last peaceful one for a very long time. I know it's completely irrational but I can't stop the shadow of war creeping into my thoughts.
If war did break out would it be similar to the gulf war? the majority of the world safe in there own little cozy homes and minds whilst 1000's of miles away Iraq was obliterated? Or will we all get thrown into total conflict? The world is a very different place to what it was ten years ago.

I remember during the Gulf War asking my Father a Question "what will happen if they win?" he jokingly replied "well because you're an untouched little girl they'll probably let you live, cut out your tongue, convert you to Islam and make you wear a hajib (sp)" to which I squealed "don't be silly daddy!!" and it was a silly answer to the genuine concerns of a little girl. I remember the playground games we used to play, Sadamm Husien became the playtime fear and hate figure, we'd throw his name around the way we would have thrown the Devil's name around a year previous to the conflict....
"don't do that or Sadamm Husein will get you!"
"hide!!! or Sadamm Husein will eat you!!" etc....

Ten years on the question becomes complicated. My child's brain has grown to that of a Women's mind. I don't think in terms of "them and us" anymore, I think in terms of humanity and how as a group we're all destroying each other. If things carry on the way they are I can seriously see world war three breaking out, pessimistic of me maybe but no one can deny we're on the brink of disaster. It just takes one madman to push the button (and I'm not referring to Sadamm here) for it all to happen...

I can't speak for anyone else but I know I'm not looking forward to it. Dark times lay ahead.



lesson of the day - long car journeys with family aren't fun
obsession of the day - Mini celebrations, mini but yummy!
quote of the day - "zzzzzzzz" - sums up boxing bay

setting: the dining room wearing: white gypsy top and skirt hair: low bunches make up: pink EVERYWHERE with a ridiculous amount of glitter drinking: COCA COLA of course... like I could possibly drink anything else :P eating: Ghoulash, white rice and cheese bread in a minute listening: nadda watching: Eastenders - gripping episode! stalking: An Angel for the christmas tree I got from my works secret santa! good timing...

Hectic day at work.

It's always very amusing to see which shoppers are the last to purchase gifts for their loved ones for Christmas.... can we guess which group it is?

that's right. Men shopping for their girlfriends/ wives. I always sell twice as much Diamonds/ bracelets/ rings/ pretty/ expensive things on THIS day than any other during my seasonal work at a jewelrist (me and my sisters have work there everytime we come back home for the holidays for few years now ^_^)

Men hunting for presents amuse me, they really do. Many haven't got a clue when it comes to Jewelry (with a few notable exceptions) and generally let you decide what to buy for them. And of course what do us young sales assistants choose for them? The most expensive items we can of course! It's what happens when your Christmas bonus made of a percentage of that you earn once you go over on your sales target O.o;

For Christmas Eve we always dress up, this years theme was naughty schoolgirls. Even the manager of the store and the only Male, Andy, was made to don glitter, drawn on freckles and a silly giggle all day which I found very amusing!

I had on fairy wings (of course!) as well as the kinky school girl uniform (no good Catholic school girls we) but they kept getting in the way and towards the end of the day I was getting a little tired of hearing the same "fairy" jokes over and over O.o; (not to mention a random guy with a moustache KISSED me because of them! O.o;;;;;)

We shut up shop at half three (much to the annoyance of a few really late Christmas shoppers... for fucks sake people, learn to do your shopping properly! Don't just leave it all to the dying seconds of shopping time as this infringes on MY time! >.<)

Then we began the joy of setting out the stock for the January sales.... do you have any idea just how depressing it is taking down Christmas decorations on Christmas eve?! O.o;;

Finally after three hours of complete and utter tedious boredom we were set free and the festivities can now begin ^_^

We're currently waiting for my Mother to come back home from her present giving rounds to the neighbouring families and then we're going to open our presents as we do every Christmas Eve
(A tradition my Mother picked up from a few years of childhood in continental Europe)

And then I'm up at 5 to travel up to Birmingham to spend Christmas with my family, the way christmas should be spent ^_^

Happy holidays everyone, drink lot's of eggnog and get drunk, eat lot's of gingerbread and get fat, and maybe if you're so inclined spare a thought for whatever deity you believe in. I know I will be ... it's that wonderful time of the year again


Lot's of love and Seasonal goodwill,

Miyu *^*x*^*


lesson of the day - Don't get conned into setting up the Jan sale EVER again!
obsession of the day -
quote of the day - "Hall out the Holly put up the tree before my spirit falls again!"